Check Engine

My check engine light came on driving from my allergists. I was headed to Jamba Juice in U Village so I checked the manual and under the hood. Wound up taking it to Herman's. I hung out in that neighborhood for around 90 minutes before convincing myself I could get home. Easily caught a 48, happened to get off right by where the 16 goes, and didn't wait too long for it.

Herman's finally called around 12:30. Could not understand the guy, but there's a problem in some system. The valve is fine so they need to delve deeper, to the tune of another $180 (I now realize how truly wonderful Scandia auto was!). Not sure when they'll be done, assuming they find what they hope to.

I'm journaling about how much things like this affect me. Not able to find comfort with uncertainty. Is it being carless? Worried about car issues? Having my day plan go out the window? Having to pay money unexpectedly? Needing to navigate back? Or is it more a too many of those things all at once?

I need to find an answer to why I am so affected sometimes. Or at least a way to minimize the effect. I was thinking I needed the one to have the other, but maybe that isn't really true.

It seems to be pouring outside. It barely rained when I was out. Normally, I'd find reassurance in that, but when I am where I am right now, all the positive stuff seems to go away and I'm stuck focusing on something a la "this is not happening." I was once told I have a kink in my sense of spontaneity. This would definitely be it.